Hello and thank you for the sharing of your ministry and sermons. I have recently discovered them online. I am a single lady in my mid-50s (divorced yrs ago) living in my small prairie home town. My family has passed away (mother, father, sister), and and I find I don’t have friends as they have their own families and friends to focus on.
Feelings of great weariness and feelings of fear for my future, being alone and loneliness, and my failures overwhelm. I gave up knowing what to pray for anymore but I listened to something that told me to pray that I be worthy of God (to put it simply) and I pray for others. I have such regrets and wrongdoings that may not be huge comparably but they’re not characteristic of me and certainly not characteristic of Jesus. And even though I do ask for forgiveness, I look for prayer and leading to a life worthy, pleasing and glorifying to God, comfort, mercy from my wrongs, and genuine unwavering peace and joy that I can share and express. I have had and do have blessings great and small, and I do outwardly express my gratitude of and occurrence of such blessings including the greatness of God’s grace and my salvation , but my great weariness including hurt from others from the months and years dampen and darken my light and therefore I too can’t be a light for others. Thank you for your ministry and forgive me for my wordiness of this letter.